Last Friday, I attended a workshop held by our department’s VP. I really learned a lot and made me realize (and I’m sure, same goes for the other attendees) how much more preparation I need in terms of interviewing for a new post or role. Thanking God for this timely session, and appreciate my bosses including me at the last minute (saling ket-ket ako kaya walang certificate, to follow pa hehe).
While I had a lot of take-aways, one that really struck me was when the speaker revealed that during an interview, the interviewer is not there to determine whether to hire me, but to reject me. I think of it as, they go in there with a mindset to trim down the list and decline me for the post, and it’s up to my brilliant selling powers, communication skills and vast experience (whether related to the post or not) to convince them otherwise.
This is a reality of life, especially for job-seekers or professionals looking for growth and other opportunities. Pero ika nga, ang buhay ay isang malaking job interview. There’s always a challenge we face in our life where we have to convince someone not to reject us or deprive us of something – courting someone, joining a club or organization, begging the landlord to extend the late rent payment, haggling with merchants or debt collectors, asking our parents for permission.
I’m glad one area of my life where I don’t have to always be at my best and act as if have to do something to prove myself worthy, is my relationship with God. God doesn’t look at my achievements, status, deeds or even physical appearance to deem me worthy of His love and grace. I am already worth it because His Son Jesus did all the work for me at the cross. Don’t get me wrong; I’m not saying don’t strive for excellence in life; it just shouldn’t be end-all of everything.
So when I’m down and feeling ugly, rejected, unfit or kulang, I hold on to this. It’s not always easy, and my faith is tested everyday. Like the fallible human that I am, when God is silent and not answering my prayer, I ask Him, why Lord? Akala ko ba mahal mo ko? What a shameful attitude to think that God owed me this little favor when He had already give me so much. I realized that it’s not that God is not listening or answering my cries, but that I am not the one listening hard enough. Oftentimes, the answer is right in front of me, but I refuse to recognize nor listen to it because I don’t like how it looks or sounds like. At yan ang isang bagay na kahit alam na alam ko na, malimit, hindi ko pa rin magawa. Ang hirap. Which is why I need and rely on His faithfulness.
God will let me fall because He knows I can stand up again. God will allow me pain and hurt because He wants me to learn from them. God will close some doors because He wants me to look outside windows too, and will throw open bigger, better doors I would otherwise have missed had I insisted on going my own way. God will allow life to be tough, because nothing is too easy for His tough child – me. God is not asking for our brilliant selling powers, communication skills and vast experience. And we need not ask him all these questions. He just needs us to trust everything to Him.
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